30.1 In the Samvat year 1885, on Posh sud Punam [19th January 1829], Swãmi Shree Sahajãnandji Mahãrãj was sitting in the mandir of Shree Gopinãthji in Dãdã Khãchar’s darbãr in Gadhadã. He was dressed entirely in white clothes. A sabhã of munis, as well as haribhaktas from various places, had gathered before Him.
30.2 Then, Shreeji Mahãrãj said, “Two beliefs which I like, and by which my mind becomes calm, are as follows: First, I like a person who is firmly convinced that there is a mass of divine light which is chaitanya, and that the murti of Shree Purushottam Bhagvãn forever resides at the centre of that mass of light; and with that belief, he worships and offers bhakti to that Bhagvãn. On the other hand, I do not like a person who believes in and worships only the chaitanya divine light; nor do I like a person who does not believe Bhagvãn to forever possess a svarup; nor do I like a person who does not worship Bhagvãn. Secondly, I like a person who performs in tap, and yog, has vairãgya and hatred towards the panch-vishays, in order to please Bhagvãn – without any form of pretence. Seeing such a person, my mind becomes pleased, and I feel, ‘He should be congratulated for behaving in that way’.
30.3 “In addition, I have constant awareness of these five thoughts: First, I am certainly going to die and leave this body. In fact, I firmly feel, ‘I am going to die at this second, at this very moment’. Such awareness remains in times of happiness and distress, pleasure and displeasure, and amidst all activities. That is the type of vairãgya I possess. The second thought is the constant awareness that even though death is certain, this much work is left, which I would like to complete. The third is thought of whether or not desires for the panch-vishays have been eradicated from my mind. I feel, ‘If they have been eradicated, then why does activity regarding that vishay still occur? What if maybe they have not been eradicated?’ In this way, I am constantly suspicious of the mind. The fourth thought is the concern of whether or not Muktãnand Swãmi and the other senior sãdhus and senior bhaktas have eradicated their desires for the panch-vishays. In fact, I am constantly aware of looking into everyone’s hearts to observe, ‘This person’s worldly desires have been removed, but this person’s have not’. Finally, the fifth thought is that if I become unhappy, then who knows where I would run away to! I would probably leave my body. Therefore, I believe I should not become unhappy. This is because it is good that by my association all these men, women, and paramhans happily sit to engage in the bhakti of Bhagvãn. Seeing them engaged in such bhakti, I become extremely pleased in my mind. I feel, ‘Everyone must die someday, but to perform bhakti in this way is the only great benefit of living’. I am constantly aware of this.”
30.4 In this way, Shreeji Mahãrãj described His own behaviour as an example for the benefit of His bhaktas, while in actual fact, He Himself is the pratyaksha svarup of Shree Purushottam Nãrãyan.
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